Has there ever been a time in your life where you asked yourself “What am I doing with my life?” Recently, I have often found myself thinking about this question.  What if there is something more out there for you? I know that nursing is a calling but what if nursing is no longer my calling?

Nursing has served me very well and has in turn helped me to serve others. It has truly been a great ride and meaningful journey thus far and while I do not foresee giving it up completely, I am ready to try my hand at something else that will help me to fulfill my purpose in life.

What if nursing is no longer my calling? This has been my daily internal struggle over the last couple of years, but I am not certain what is next. The whirlwind combination of confusion regarding my career choice and uncertainty are overwhelming.   

How does one go about figuring out their next move? What inspires you to get up and get moving? What are you passionate about? What is it that you are being drawn to? What is your true purpose? How can you turn your passion into a career? 

Truth be told, I am quite bored with what I am currently doing. Oftentimes I feel as if I would much rather watch paint dry than to continue in this current trajectory. Perhaps I just need a setting change? 

Nursing career offers so many different positions and there are so many new roles that come about often, both bedside and non bedside. But again, the question is, what if nursing is no longer my calling?

Part of my current role involves teaching. I love when my students comprehend the lessons and I get to witness that "Aha!" moment with the twinkles in their eyes. When things begin to click for my students, it's as if something also clicks inside of me, and I can't help but smile. Smile because of fulfillment and that dreaded question, again sips in, "What if nursing is no longer my calling?"

While I do love teaching, there are times when I teach for long periods of time I find myself getting hoarse. I long to actualize another aspect of my life that was placed on hold due to COVID pandemic, and that is singing. Yes you are right, singing and teaching do not go well together, but I used to be in a cover band and I play a very active role in my church’s music ministry.

When you think you got all things figured out, life will mysteriously begin to present all those repressed passions you have had through the years. And I think the next part of my journey will be in some form of fashion that involves music because I am very passionate about music and it will also involve giving back to my community. With this in my heart and mind,  I am trying to figure out a way where I can intertwine music and help others.  

Nursing profession is about serving others, therefore I know my next venture will somehow involve this aspect, to be of service with others. Now, with the help of my family members and loved ones, I am trying to find a way to channel my passions to turn it into something lucrative and creative so that I can move forward. 

The road to self actualization and finding the answers to all your questions about your life's purpose could be relentless, tedious work and time consuming but believe that it will be all worth it.

In the meantime, I will continue to put my best foot forward in my current role. I will handle the things in my life that I can control. I will gather relevant life and work related experiences until the time has come to close the curtains on that part of my career and venture in the new opportunity presented on my table.